The other notepad

Lately, I have only been writing on a notepad that sits on my nightstand beside my bed. Sometimes, I wonder if anybody were to go through and read these short notes...would they be able to piece together parts of my life? It helps me - to wake up to something encouraging, to get a worry off my chest before I go to bed, or simply, to write something down so I don't forget. But it's simply not enough.

And so - I hope for this to be "the other notepad." Perhaps just as sporadic but a little more in-depth. It won't be the first and last thing before I turn off/on my lights - but hopefully, it'll help me to write again.

I do have another blog, but it is solely for the purpose of documenting my hopeful upcoming adventures...(And to fulfill the scholarship requirement.) This, this will be different.
Speaking of, every day as I get no letter in the mail and no notification in my inbox I get more and more knots in my stomach. What if I don't get accepted? I can't even imagine. I have never wanted something this bad, and I don't know how I would bear it being taken away from me.

Speaking of - what do you say to a friend whom everything is being taken away from? His father long gone. His girlfriend battling cancer. His friend recently buried. His will to live dwindling. And his faith being torn to shreds. I have been doing my best - but I am only a human. And I fear, so is he. I have never needed to believe in the power of pray as much as I have now, for his sake. Every day is an answered pray...because he is still alive. Every breath his girlfriend takes a sigh of relief. But what happens...if it all falls apart? I continue praying for a miracle.

On a more upbeat note - I am going to prom! I am very excited! I shouldn't be. It's just a night of bad music that I can't dance to anyways. But a poof-y dress is in my future! =)